Regret

Regret is a powerful thing. Going back and looking back at all the memories of my life I realized that I wish I could have changed some things. I wish I would have been nobler. I wish I would have had more courage. I wish I had been a better person. I just wish I could have changed a lot of things. I don’t really know why I started to reminisce, but these were some powerful memories that just didn’t want to leave me alone. They kept replaying themselves in my head. It’s hard to realize your mistakes.

I’ve made a lot of mistakes, and some of them have been because I hold grudges. It’s hard to put yourself in someone else’s shoes without knowing all the facts. I’ve lost some friends over time, but some of the losses hit me harder than others. It’s just ludicrous to me how I lost some of these friends that I became so close to. It makes me realize that everyone makes mistakes, and it’s not healthy to hold on to grudges. It’s better to let go of these. I’ve let go of things, but sometimes it’s too late-especially when it comes to friendships.

Friends are for a lifetime if things work out correctly, and I’ve let little things interfere with some of my friendships. I let things get awkward with some, and I’ve gotten mad over insignificant matters. I just wish that I would’ve worked through things with some of my past friends.

~Timafa12~

I have regrets, but I’ll remember these moments when I make my future choices.

The Future

There is always the fear of moving forward. What will the future bring? How will I change? How will I evolve as a person? Will I like what I become in the future? I’m curious. Everyone changes it’s an undeniable part of life. No matter how much we try to conceal it sometimes. We are shaped by experiences and time. We are malleable, and a lot of things/events/memories shape us.

I like to look back and pinpoint events in my past that have been crucial to my development. Once in a while, I find events that haven’t changed me for the better, yet they have helped me grow. Are these mistakes in my life crucial to my development? Yes, they are. No matter how mortifying or hurtful I have been to others in the past-it is part of our life as humans. Everyone makes mistakes. It is up to us to correct those mistakes.

It is up to us to have the courage and compassion to seek for forgiveness. We as humans need to accept that there will be times when we hurt others. There will be times when we are hurt by others, but it is within our power to take action. It is up to us to change our future-to better ourselves. 

Humanity has suffered through many catastrophic events-wars, natural disasters,genocides, etc.-, yet here we remain still standing. We are unified in one way or another. We are the same species. Granted we have different dialects, looks, and opinions, but my hope is that one day we will come to be a unified world. One day, in the future, I hope that we can stand together.

~Timafa12~

“The difference between what we do and what we are capable of doing would suffice to solve most of the world’s problems.”-Mahatma Gandhi