What makes us who we are? The people around us, significant others’, family, friends….? I’ve actually had a hard time finding myself lately. It feels like I’ve been meshed together with bits and pieces of the people around me. Instead of being my own self, I think I just let myself be overwhelmed by others. I realize this kind of sounds a little bit strange, but I hadn’t really thought about it, until I was left on my own for a couple of days.

I guess I just got so into what all the people around me were doing, and that caused me to lose sight of who I am. It’s not really anyone else’s fault, but I’d just forgotten what it was like to be by myself. When I first encountered it, I was left thinking that I was just lonely. It’s weird because I used to be on my own a lot, and that never bothered me before. I guess I got used to having another person with me at all times, and didn’t realize that I needed some time on my own as well. At first, it was off-putting because it just felt really strange. Then I guess things just got to my head for a while. I got sad, and then I got reflective.

The truth is that I know that I need to work on who I am, and how I define myself. I kind of lost sight of that because I hadn’t had time to myself. When I go back and evaluate some of my feelings and thoughts, I am actually quite surprised by some of my actions. I was happy before, and now I let things worry me too much. The truth is that it’s okay to get mad and angry, and I know that these feelings are good to have. Maybe a part of me was just bottling up some things.

Anyway, it’s nice to have time to think on my own. I want to continue to work on who I am as a person, and hopefully not get so engrossed with what others are doing.

~Timafa~

“ You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them.”– Maya Angelou